the giving tree

for the first time, i had an opportunity to do some real voluntary work. was on duty a couple of days back at the giving tree volunteers' fair at tampines. i had no idea what was in stored for us until i actually reached there. in front of me was this really MASSIVE pile of soft toys waiting to be sorted out and packed. and it didnt stop there. many more continued coming to donate their stuff toys to us. and then i realised my job was to sort out of the toys and not presentation on the booth as i thought it would be. a simple and easy job quick became tiring and dull as the pile never seemed to lessened. from poohs to hello kittys, you name it, we had it. wah, i've never seen that many stuffed toy before in my entire life.

the toys were basically for the children victims of the tsunami, and it was important we sorted out the toys properly according to their condition and material so that the children will only recieve the good stuff and not make them feel worthless by giving them the dirtied and spoilt ones too. so there i was being santa's worker, inspecting every toy before it goes into the right bag. thoughts ran through my tired mind as i asked myself was it really worth my valuable time that i could have spent on a good rest instead, doing such work and not getting anything in return?

well, it was a yes. and in fact, isn't going down for trainings and teaching the cadets all considered voluntary work too? afterall, we dont get anything in return, except in hope that we'll be able to see our young ones growing and excelling in the right path of life. though i do have many limitations, i was glad to know my little efforts, in this case packing the toys, could mean a huge blessing to others. eventually with a little over-time, the three of us there did managed to get the pile sorted out and packed. PHEW, it was a big achievement alright. it felt good to see the pleasant side of singaporeans for a change, as compared to those you see running when the mrt approaches, budgging their way through the opened mrt door and literally rushing in for a seat. sad huh. there were quite a number that actually bought these brand new toys just to donate them. what nice people haha =) so, as the slogan goes, ' it doesnt take much effort to be a volunteer, just do what you normally do!' =) ah hah! the giving tree ends only on the 31st dec. so do bring down your stuffed toys if you wish to have them donated!

chill!

the time of the year

wines, feasting, carolings and much time spent time with loved ones... was just to sum up this merry little Christmas of mine. its such a big difference of how the materialistic world and the church potrays Christmas to be. seeing the beautiful lights and deco along town no doubt gets us all hyped up in the mood to just spend more money. who can really resist especially when theres a Christmas sale going on almost everywhere? well, not to say that is wrong. but seriously how many of us actually do take this time to reflect and think about the true meaning of Christmas? that of Christ's presence coming into our little hearts and for us to share this love with those around us. i guessed Christmas only became meaningful and fulfilling to me when i decided to give and share unselfishly.

the fmssrcy Christmas cum seniors' reunion held at sentosa last friday that we planned for so long and sacrificed much of our personal time resulted in a sweet success. the committee must agree with me when i say that though it was tiring planning and doing the marketing, we all had a great time crapping around, laughing, catching up with stuff that we missed since the start of VIP, and of course just having simple clean fun together! indeed God was watching over us the whole while and answering our prayers when the weather didnt seem to good on the day itself. yeah, we all know it poured extremely heavily some time after we left the place, turning out to be exactly what poh huat sir told us the evening before. the food was sufficient, the attendence was rather good, the weather was just perfect, everyone had a great time, so what more can i say? PRAISE GOD! =) Christmas eve's dinner that evening was spent at a relative's place. roasted turkey, ham, chicken, duck, were just some of the food laid out on the table. after that meal i promised myself to eat only salad and vegetables for the next one week. hahaha. a pity i was too tired to attend the midnight Christmas mass at holy cross, but nonetheless the morning mass with my family at st francis the next day was equally good. that night was another bbq dinner. the THIRD one in two weeks. hahaha, thanks to VIP i was forced in learning to start up a bbq fire in just 15mins. useful skill you know =).

ok, so now my throat's feeling a little sore from all the bbq and my mom has already stocked up the fridge with lotsa lettuce for the family. my house has turned into a refugee camp with my relatives from shanghai staying over. haha rather messy place, but gives the feeling of a warm and cosy home. joanne and i will be down at tampines mall for duty at the volunteers exhibition fair. so do come and give us your support if you have nothing better to do! hahas. Christmas last for 12 days if you don't know. so well, do have a happy Christmas and a blessed year ahead! =)

God bless!

finally home

its been some time since the last entry and, well for a start the KL trip was good, thinking about the fact i stayed away from any form of work that couple of days and had a good rest. didn't do much shopping there as the prices of stuff weren't very much different from here. instead, it was clubbing and pubbing every night. quite an effort getting the first bottle down my throat, but after that, the rest wasn't a problem haha. first time experience lah, so what much can i say about it. it was fun though.

anyways, back to reality... returned from the vi camp yesterday and til now my whole body's still aching away badly. the rescue mission at ubin on day2 was physically torturing while being the I/C on day3 was mentally challenging. but hey, we managed to overcome and survived through it. and thats just a small part of what each of us brought home with us. though it was tough, no doubt was it great fun! having the jokers around sure added much fun and laughter into the camp til a point many described the camp as a 'chalet' haha. much of the activities gave us opportunity to forge closer bonds with one another. and so, the statement 'people only bond when they suffer together', proves to be true. there were times however, that got me very disappointed with myself and my fellow fairsians. but nonetheless, we're all still learning and i wish the best for us all. now that the camp has ended and most of us will be on the way to becoming full pledged VIs, its hard to decide on a unit to attach ourselves to. fairfield or tk? hmmm... camp report and fdcom proposal needs to be up soon! urgh, not forgetting christmas is just afew days away...

leaving for KL

VIP has started and im only going to get busier and busier as the camp draws nearer. yesterday's first contact session went rather well. but it felt even better to once again be able to meet and catch up with my ULP batchmates of 04/02 :)

anyways, my lucky parents left for Rome yesterday with their free airtickets! guess they'll be enjoying themselves there for sometime as i heard my mom saying she always wanted to visit Europe before she gets old and have trouble walking. hahas. i'll be in Rome with them now if not for VIP... but oh wells. my bro and i are taking a short trip to KL tomorrow and will only be back on thursday. nothing much in mind, except to visit our dear relatives and do some christmas shopping (if i can find anything cheap there of course. hehe) so yeah, if theres anything important you can still reach me on my mobile. take care!

and oh, vip charlie mates... thanks for helping out with my workload, i owe you guys one :)

chill.

the joy of childhood

i decided to take a stroll to jurong point after dinner just now to rent some vcds and i must say that on the way there and back i actually felt cold for the first time! what is happening to the weather these few days??

well i haven't been doing anything productive this week and my parents are begining to nag about that. did a couple of work outs, swims, sun tanning, checking out books at kino, window shopping with boren and of course going down for trainings. finally, im done with packing and cleaning up my room, except for getting the few furniture i want from ikea. my dad's been asking me to go sign up for courses to acquire some new skills during the holidays and not rot at home. submitted my application for my powerboating license and yeah, guess i wouldn't mind anything else with company around. anyone has anything in mind? =) boren and i are gonna try out baking cookies and brownies next week! if they turn out good... well you know what you can expect for christmas this year. hahaha, but dont worry we'll make sure they're up to standard before letting you guys to try them! =)

hmmm... just a couple of weeks back, a group of us decided to undergo a project to help out our primary school red cross link unit. i've been thinking alot about this lately, about the time, commitment, training, etc towards it. i believe not only will assisting them be beneficial to both units, fmssrcy and fmps rcy link, but also to us as individuals. after having been trained as a cadet and training cadets in the teenage age for 2-4 years, i have to admit it'll be a challenge for us now to switch our ways in teaching these little ones. methods such as tekaning, corporal punishment, scolding and many other high expectations will no longer be useful towards these kids. but still, if theres a will, theres a way. though not an easy task this project will be, i took it up believing that as much as i'll be able to share my knowledge and passion for redcross with these kids, so too will i be able to learn and experience from these little ones about our long lost worry-free and joyful childhood we all once had but lost as soon as growing up took place.

and the party begins

WOAH. Os are gone just like that. hallelujah! wahaha.

but frankly you know, its not easy changing from the lifestyle i used to had. mug mug mug. and now its slack slack slack. hah. everyone may be having fun right now. but you gotta admit it when i say things will end up getting extremely boring very soon. hahas. and i am starting to feel the boredom already. i hope it wont come a point when i have to follow my mom for facial or yoga sessions because im literally dying from boredom at home! well for a start, i've been doing serious packing and cleaning up of my room. HAH. and i never realised it can be so exhausting! emptied out tonns of trash and worksheets that had been piling up since sec1. and awww... i can finally breathe now in my clean and dust-free room :) gonna look for some paint and furniture at ikea to do up my room during the next couple of days. hehe. the weather has been particularly cool these days. perfect for sleeping! but nolah. thats bad cause im really waiting for the sun to come out so i can go for my swim! and yes, footdrill training is only effective when theres a hot sun! hahas. but honestly i like the weather the way it is now. will it ever snow here? :)

LAST PAPER

was wondering how my bottle of facial soap ran out so fast within a week and why my bathroom floor was always so soapy. and today i found out thats cause the bottle had a hole in it! urghh. thinking of that, questions came to my mind. what is the rate at which the soap leaks out of its bottle? how is the soap able to leak out of its bottle? why is the soap soapy? amaths, physics, chem... uurgghh! yesh, that were the only things my whole mind was filled with for the past 2 weeks >.<

but thank God, everythings over now... 'SIGH'. somehow i really want to go somewhere to scream, cry and let everything out. all thats been inside of me. the stress, anger, frustation, tiredness.. haha, okay. i shall not get too emotional here. today's the last paper - history. for a start, well maybe i don't really hold very high expectations for myself when it comes to studies. i think most importantly was that i did do my best, and theres nothing to regret. and im sure thats what my parents would ask of me. so... i can say im rather pleased with the papers so far (:

yeah, i've finally decided what i'm gonna do after the papers. hahas. no, im not going out to wreck havoc. but im just going to be a good boy and go home to pack my room, get rid of all the books! (or maybe i shouldnt incase i retain. TOUCH WOOD. i sure hope not. hahahas ) then i'll go to church to give thanks for all thats happened during the past two weeks, and then its off to chill with my buds! unfortunately harry potter's all sold out. all alina's fault for buying so many tickets and leaving none for me!!! grrr. WATCH OUT.

just a week to go

thank goodness, the weekends are just what i need right now. spent most of the weekend studying and at church. attended gwen's confirmation mass at holy cross today. though it was pretty long, but then i still thought we should put God above everything else and so, since somethings are more important than studies, i decided to take time off the books and attend the mass. congrats to gwen, brian, marcus, chartel and recardo on receiving the holy spirit! i pray that you guys will use this gift well and continue walking in the way of Christ and to be a light for Him :) so as much as i had a great time there, it also gave me an opportunity to remember and renew the vows i've made for my own confi. praise God!

mann.. 6 papers to go, and its all over, OVER! and then... back to redcross meetings.

SIGH.

smack in the middle of Os

like finally. Os are here! the past few papers have been alright. stress level not yet at his peak as my papers happen to fall on alternate days, so theres more time to study, and the killer papers are only nexk week! i just hope it wont get any worst than it is now. somehow i've been thinking more about what i'm gonna do after the exams instead of concentrating on the papers themselves. heh heh. so... ok, please keep the prayers coming in for us all, especially those taking their As too, you're not forgotten.

best of luck! :)

just helping a friend

a friend of mine (for those of you who know him, its nicholas tang) is in need of some spare cash to pay his bills. he's offering science and maths tuition to lower secondary. anyone interested can contact him at nicholas450@hotmail.com

just a day away to Os... >.<

as you sow, so shall you reap

if you plant honesty, you will reap trust.

if you plant goodness, you will reap friends.

if you plant humility, you will reap greatness.

if you plant perseverance, you will reap victory.

if you plant consideration, you will reap harmony.

if you plant hard work, you will reap success.

if you plant forgiveness, you will reap reconciliation.

if you plant openess, you will reap intimacy.

if you plant patience, you will reap improvements

if you plant faith, you will reap miracles.

another day at essential brew

talk about going to bed early, and theres matches on tonight! or these few days rather. how leh? today's deepavali and thursday's gonna be hari raya. public holiday or not, doesn't seem much of a diff to us muggers. spent the day going for tuition and the rest of it at holland v's essential brew. if you havent been there, well its this really cosy and comfy restaurant with low tables and you have to sit on the floor. not to worry, there are cushions and pillows provided! highly recommended for a late night chill out or pleasurable reading. studying... er, not so much lah. cause once it gets too comfortable you most probably will end up falling asleep and drooling on the nice cushions... just like i did. hahas, nonetheless i did managed to finish reading the whole of twelfth night :)

ok, its to the tv for now before going back to the books! enjoying yourselves or not, i'd still like to wish all out there a happy festive week. do take care and God bless!

chill.

happy halloween

its way past morning and im still feeling high. must be due to the gym session i had earlier. ever since all the studying began, so did the munching. hah, and i have obviously grown fatter. see, thats the bad thing about not going to school. you get to gain the calories and rot at home. urgh, with all the halloween celebrations going on tonight, its a good night to be out partying. unfortunately for the exams, i'll be home for the next 2 weeks without a life. so you non sec4 people out there please spare a thought for me and don't tell me how you're enjoying your holidays alright? hahas, don't forget your turn will be soon. ok, well that also means i should be getting my biological clock adjusted back to proper working form before next monday.

ah yesh, how can i forget. happy 16th birthday to melvin! thought i would forget eh? as promised the harry potter treat's on me after the last paper yah? :)

twits?

got a site from a friend i'd like to share with you guys. hahaha, no offence ok? check it out ;)

http://museum-of-twits.blogspot.com/2005/06/20-pose-ideas_28.html

chill.

new toy

ok, due to the many requests to remove the sad video clip, i have finally done that. those who want the video can always get it from me on msn or the mp3 format from boren =) so... nothing much been happening the past few days. well, of course that chelsea trashed real betis 4-0 last tuesday! hah, havent caught such a good match for such a long time. we'll be looking forward to more great matches eh?

finally, after so long mom agreed to get me a new guit last friday. yeah i got an FX 310 electric acoustic guit. came along with a mini amp. sweet. just a little something to keep me occuppied this study season. and boy, am i counting down to christmas =) 61 days to be exact. but then again, its 14 days to Os... sighh.

i just added a number of links, so feel free to check them out.

chill.

rainy sunday

its a sunday and looking out my window, its been pouring since morning. wahh, what a perfect day to spend the rest of it sleeping haha. dad left for europe this morning so the house will be peaceful for sometime. haha, no i dont mean in a bad way but just that he enjoys irritating us when hes at home. haha. and yes, speaking of that, he woke us up at 4 this morning to tell us the hamsters were missing! and made my bro and i to find them! so far we only found 4 out of 6 :( oh well, like my bro said, stupid hamsters. got food and water provided they wana run away and go find the pussycat. if knew they wanted to run away should have sold them off and make some money earlier. ggrrr...

so school holidays have started. okok, or rather, STUDY LEAVE. no plans at the moment, except just to mug, mug and mug. sighh. looking on the bright side, i can get more sleep! wahaha. yeahh and thanks to someone's influence im now hooked onto korean movies and music. nolah dont get the wrong idea i dont watch them cause of the cute korean guys that many girls would claim are. (cause i know im still the cutest :] ) but ok lah, some story lines are nice, though most of it ends with someone dying. but im a sadist remember? heh heh.

ok, i'm tired of studying. going back to bed for now.

chill.

farewell fairfield

yeah, school's offically ended for me yesterday. i must say that yesterday was one of the most fun yet saddest day... well ok, simply to put it, it was memorable. though unexpectedly somethings happened, but nonetheless im sure as a class we enjoyed the little sing along session led by loke right? thanks for that moment guys, i'll never forget it :) hmm, i never expected it to be that emotional nor would i break down, but eventually i did. anyways, i just wana say a really BIG thank you to all those who have made my 10years in fairfield so special and meaningful, you know who you are. especially my pals of sec 1F, 2D, 3C and 4C, thanks for adding all the crappiness and lameness into everyday lessons. you sure made them fun. and of course those being ever ready to help me with my work, problems and influencing me positively, again you guys know who you are, im truely grateful for having you around :) well... so the list just goes on and on...

do remember our 4C reunion in 10 years time! yeahh, we'll bring our kids, husbands and wives along! hahaha. God bless, until we meet again.

for you :)

might be quite a long clip... but i think its rather touching. enjoy!

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once again the weekends are here. well that simply means the Os are drawing closer! that can be a good or bad thing too lar yah. somehow i feel my biological clock is now upset cause of the crazy marathons the past nights but, oh wells... we did survive. haha.

this week is gonna be the last week of school. yeah as in the ' lastest last' before we all break off and only see each other during the actual Os. wahh. how time flies. 10 years in fairfield comes to an end. im starting to miss everything there is in school. the redcross room (used to be my hostel before the sec3s took over and messed it up haha) ... the pa sound room (where i get my extra naps)... the nasi lemak, the tuesdays hor fan... and how can i forget, MISS ELAINE LIM. wahaha. and yes lah, everyone including YOU reading this now :)

sometimes the thought of how fast life moves really scares me. so much to do, so little time... and somethings are just beyond our control... sighh.

[ attack of the ikan bilis ]

its late into the night and its pouring outside. sounds like an ideal time to sleep, but unfortunately that's not gonna happen. damn, still stuck with a paper of amaths to go before i knock off. spending tonight at macs for another marathon with kevin. we stopped at 6am the previous time, so lets hope we can study till 10am this time. ha ha ha.

i ate nasi lemak for recess yesterday and guess what happened. an ikan bilis pierced the top of my gums and it got stuck there! duhh it hurt damn bad. it was only much later that i got it removed. wahh, now i can feel a hole there.

[ the road to war ]

ok, have actually worked out a 'timetable' and a list of work to be done each day if im gonna complete my revision before the 0s. 2 past yr papers of amaths, 1 tys chapter of emaths and 3 tys chapters of physics a day! started since monday and wahh... it shagged the brains out of me. damn.. 30 more days. MUST PERSEVERE!

my teacher said this to us today, "for afew of you (she reads out abt 5 names), you should be getting your A1s, the second bunch of you (she reads abt 10 names), you should really work harder to get your As. as for the rest of you, make sure you aim to pass."

hmmm, is it just me or is it that our teacher doesn't believe in us? boy... whatever it is, im more than determine to challenge her now. HELL YEAH.

[ back... ]

wah, never realised its been such a long time since the last entry.

well for once, the prelims are over. results were crap. ok, i mean really crap like you've never seen before. enough of being depressed over them. its time to move on and really chiong towards the Os now. 1 month + afew days then i'll be free! muahaha.

HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY!

especially to

mrs ang,
mrs kwek,
mrs chng,
mrs quah,
miss ong,
miss tan,
miss wong,
miss tai,
miss sham,
mdm shi and
MR FIRHAD.

hahas. yes they are my teachers and they rock.
thanks for everything.

p.s. i know my YOs are spying on my blog. wahaha.

[ lesson learnt ]

my parents left for Shanghai last night. after such a long time they finally decided to take a good break and to visit my relatives there. so before they come back with all the cheap goods and pirated dvds, my bro and i are in charge of the house. heh heh. well im just glad they're able to get away from their endless work and go for a nice holiday together without my bro and me.

for some reason i decided to visit a flowershop (or whatever you call a shop that sells flowers). i went in, began looking around for something nice but well, you should know im the type that knows nuts about flowers. so i decided to get help from the store assistant. said i wanted to get a small bouquet for some friends. preferbly bright coloured ones. he showed me some already arranged ones in the fridge but i asked what about the others (the ones they always sold in stalks and displayed in the open). he gave a huge stare and asked me, "Are you Singaporean??" and i was thinking what the heck did i say wrong? then he told me those are usually used for cemeteries. -__-! mann... i never knew. but its a good thing i do now. if not i might have ended up buying them all as teachers' day presents. LOL. well in the end i did managed to find something that looked rather nice. not the ones for cemetries of course! but i hope the ones receving it would like it. its a gift from kevin and me.

wenfang sent me a really touching song titled 'never gone' by bsb that i cant stop listening to. though its just a simple song, its lyrics sure reaches deep down into the heart... thanks wf. cheer up okays? the unit and i need you... be strong :)

[ In Loving Memory... ]

things hasn't been going on right this entire week. first i got seriously stressed out with my studies and suffered a short "nervous breakdown". the thought of how a close friend went bonkers due to being overstressed only scares me more. but im all fine now after taking a day off from sch on thurs.

that very day a fairsian collapsed during pe and never woke up. i shun't add in the details about it cause everyone is already blogging on it. doreen was in the same cca as me, media@fairfield. though i never knew her personally, no doubt was it obvious she always had many close friends by her side and was well-liked. having received the news do sadden me much, especially to see my friends who know her well being so affected by it. what i heard from friends, she wasn't always happy due to the many problems she was facing. maybe thats why she didnt had much will to fight on. but then, her passing away made many of us think twice about life, of how fragile it is. blen and doreen's incident were classified as birth defects, but that doesnt mean the rest of us are spared. instead of feeling sad and regretful, which only time can heal, i urge you guys not only to learn, but always remember what doreen had to tell us - to live our life to the fullest. because life only come once and its so short and fragile, its a huge waste to spend it on anger, hatred and holding back the things we really wana do or say. and of course, to treasure those around us. don't wait before something happens, cause no one can tell when it will just like in the case of doreen and blen.

to my dearest redcross cadets... everything that could be done to save her had been done and no one is to be blamed. if God wants her home, we cant fight against that. consider doreen's condition, it was a miracle for her to live til this age, which goes the same for blen. they came into our lives to be a blessing, and lets pass on this blessing to those around us.

to all you out there, lets keep doreen, her family and close friends in our daily prayers.
that her family and friends be strengthen in morale and may doreen enjoy eternal life with our father in paradise.

god bless.

[ The Art of Erotic Eating ]

Aphrodisiac foods, that is, foods that are believed to increase sexual desire, have been used around the world for hundreds of years to create passion and lust. And we all know that good sex needs plenty of energy. So eat up!

Top 10 lust-inducing foods

Avocado The ancient Aztecs called it ahuacatl, which means "testicle". Ah! Thought it looked familiar! Praised by the Spanish for its ability to arouse — and swiftly banned by Catholic priests for the very same reason...

Almond This nutty little number has long been associated with passion and fertility. The scent of almond is said to excite women, and it is thus a common ingredient in soaps, lotions and the like.

Banana There's no disputing the phallic resemblance, but did you know the humble banana is packed with vitamins that are said to work wonders for our sex hormones?

Chocolate Is there any food more associated with sex and romance than chocolate? Legendary super-stud Casanova was a serious chocoholic and rumour has it, he always tucked into some before entertaining his lady friends.

Chilli Not for the faint hearted, spicy chilli is great for stimulating circulation. And all that increased blood flow only helps with your sense of arousal. So if you're in the mood for love, don't forget to spice it up!

Figs This erotic-looking, fleshy fruit is said to act as a powerful sexual stimulant. It has been revered by everyone from the Greeks to the Egyptians as a sacred food associated with fertility and love.

Mustard Another fiery foodstuff reported to increase sexual desire. In the Middle Ages mustard paste was used as a stimulant and smeared over the body, paying particular attention to the male member...

Oysters Packed with zinc, the oyster has long been associated with virility and sexual performance. Their suggestive appearance makes them a firm favourite with lovers the world over.

Pinenuts Also packed with zinc, the ancient pine nut has been used for centuries in the creation of love potions. Roman poet Ovid wrote of their arousing properties in his controversial work 'The Art of Love.'

Strawberries Strawberries, and raspberries for that matter, paired with Champagne are regarded as a powerful and seductive aphrodisiac. Known in erotic literature as "fruit nipples", these tasty morsels are the sexiest fruit around.

For the ultimate in sexy eating, try a blindfolded picnic. Blindfold your partner then choose a morsel of exotic food to have them sample. Tease them with the food while you feed it to them — will it be salty, spicy, sweet? Use your fingers. Watch their reactions as they devour each titbit with pleasure.

A word of caution though, choose your picnic location wisely, with all this sexy food, things could get a little out of control... So unless you are an exhibitionist, you might feel more comfortable closer to home.

[ females again... ]

my hamsters gave birth to three this morning. by the time i realised, the pups were all ripped apart and left on the hamster wheel. none survived. damnn, i just lost my appetite to consume anything.

sighh... why must females be such ferocious creatures? males beware...

[ The Maid ]

caught the movie, The Maid with some RC friends today. its hardly that the 8 generations get to go out together. so... the movie's basically about the chinese beliefs and supersitions on the 7th month, from a philippino maid's point of view. having the movie produced in singapore and about singapore, it easy to relate to the story, thus making it scarier during some scenes. so much so that fiona ghui cried on the way home! wahahas.

said she could imagine everything coming to life. well who knows, maybe... she did saw something we didn't? afterall the seven month has not ended...

[ Be Warned ]

if you haven't been reading the news, heres something you should be aware of.

"THREE men aged 16 to 22 were arrested at their homes yesterday for distributing 20,000 pirated digital music files using a program designed to share files over the Internet.This is the first time police have targeted home Internet users who distribute digital music but do not try to profit from it... offenders could be fined or JAILED."

so... finally the police decided to go hard on such users. speak about scapegoats. rather unfair for the three to get arrested to use as scapegoats while probably 1/4 the population in singapore continues downloading mp3s huh.

nonetheless, i got my mp3 peer to peer softwares deleted already, and i really urge you guys to do so. get the cd if you have to. its not worth getting a criminal record, not to mention being put behind bars over such stuff.

to kevin, stop all the porn download ehh. don't wana see you behind bars.

chill.

[ sarcasm? ]

english orals was conducted yesterday, with the main topic on Teachers. got so carried away at one point that i said, "some teachers are really unreasonable!" forgetting that the examiners were teachers too. *glups* to cover up i said, "opps sorry i don't mean you :)" hahas ok i know that sounded rather sarcastic. they laughed and i sure hope that doesn't mean a penalization for me. -___-

going to school now seems more like tuition, with all the many chem and chinese periods taken off my timetable and replaced by free periods. its a pity they're not the last periods. imagine friday... i'll be going home at 10.45am. wahaha.

was at jurong point yesterday looking for some gifts. an alarm sounded and an annoucement was made, "this is an emergency situation. all occupants and shoppers are to evacuate the building immediately" wahh... thought it was rather exciting. hahas. but anyways another annoucement was made saying it was only a false alarm lah. cheyy...

[ whats wrong with being a teacher? ]

time is moving real fast... in a matter of days i'll be typing "prelims are tomorrow..." damn, i seriously need to get all hyped up for studying now.

had a conversation with my dad over dinner just now. he asked what i wana be when i grow up and i answered, "a teacher". his expression changed. said he was shocked and i had just shattered his dreams...

hmm...

[ Release of O MT result ]

chinese results were released yesterday. i... PASSED! PRAISE GOD! wahahas. :) though its only a pass, im glad. considering the fact my chinese has never been good. its a miracle i got a merit for orals! heh, thats unbelievable...

well i have no intentions of retaking the nov one. afterall i don't plan to use MT as one of my L1R4 subjects. so... yeah. guess thats the last of studying chinese for me. heh heh.

thanks for all the prayers and encouragement from you guys! :)

[ getting impatient ]


i like this!!! :)

hmm... been waiting for the past 10min for photobucket to upload my pics... and its still loading. grr... im getting impatient. prelims are just 4 weeks away and so looking forward to it. chinese results will be out tomorrow and... ok, im nervous. (who isn't?) but then again, i felt i've done my best and left the rest to god. whatever the results tomorrow, im seeing it as a positive one. but nonetheless, please pray for us yah :) im hoping not to retake the papers.

was doing some polytechnic surfing just now and glad to know ngee ann offers courses on biomedical engineering - just what i wanted. well now it all depends how hard im willing to work for it. anyone interested to join me? :) hah. btw, do you know the GV citibank gold class threatre at great world city screens charlie and the chocolate factory and the audience is able to smell the scent of chocolate and watch the movie? lol interesting...

ok photos are uploaded. like finally...


jungle discovery ride


jeremy, tian and the sniper


inside the bronix


junqi and elizabeth!


mr lee


macho simon


balloon?


ian!


the rest of the photos will be uploaded on the school portal. if you have any you wish to share you can send them to me to upload. chill.

[ 4Oth National Day ]

was at the carnival@marina on monday with the school. went around collecting posters, taking photos and seeing the usual army vehicles and equipment. its amusing how the government entertain the little ones by having such army road shows...getting to sit on the tanks, ships and trucks as rides and getting the soilders to act as entertainers, guides and those that drive past in their fire engines and start waving at you. hahas. no disneyland here? not a problem. we got armyland! ;)

the layout was huge and 3hours wasn't enough time to cover everything. considering the rain delayed most of the "rides and attractions" something caught our eyes and we couldnt resist but spend the rest of our time we had on it - TABLE SOCCER! lol. so much for national education.
despite the horrible weather being hot and humid, we had great fun there.

since my parents were on holidays too yesterday, we decided to see showflats around the west. guess we're too used to the west already. shifting to the east would be like migrating to a foreign land for us. my father particularly liked the idea of buying two 2-room units side by side in a condo. my bro and i staying in one while my parents next door. said it could be alot easier for us in the future that way. if my bro decided to get married and shift out or take over the house, then i could move back in with my parents, or me vice versa. hahas... i dunno, but my bro and i wasn't keen on the idea. afterall all the 2 room units at lake holmz were sold out and so it looks like that isn't gonna be the case. my father wasn't impressed with any of the houses we saw... so i guess we have no plans to shift for the time being at least until we can find one at pleases him.

managed to catch the fireworks display at jurong east from my house. seemed more like a forest fire though. hahas. well it was nice, but seriously the i think the best way to experience NDP, is to be a part of it. as in taking part in the parade or performances and stuff. was surprising that the camera crew focused quite alot on the supporting contingents especially red cross as compared to previous years.

oyes. before i forget, HAPPY NATIONAL DAY TO ALL!

and finally... the photos. enjoy! ;)


enshao, brandon and me @ the padang!


"made in Singapore"


red lions


red cross!


view of the parade


spot the error?


state flag fly past


boat?


spectacular lights


fireworks!


more fireworks!


even more fireworks!


er... hah?


us chionging out of the padang to avoid the crowds

[ Underwear? ]

got to spend the sunday with my aunt and female cousins before they fly back to shanghai tomorrow. they migrated there about 2 years ago and come back to singapore for holidays only twice a year. so each time i see my 2 cousins.... well they grow quite alot. they went shopping and so i tagged along. afterall i couldn't stay put in the house any longer.

and... BOY, THAT WAS ONE SHOPPING TRIP! after all these years of going out and shopping with my mother I CAN NEVER NEVER UNDERSTAND whats going on in womens mind when they shop! tell them to get some thing you need and they spend hours looking at things all over the place which many of those they dont need. hah okok i shan't add a long list of things women do if not i know i'll see my tagboard getting spammed by them. -_-" anyways, they (my aunt and cousins) then spent easily an hour looking and trying on women's underwear, which again i don't know if they bought any. i waited outside the shop caused i never liked entering stores that purely sell women's products and my aunt called me in and gave me afew tips on choosing underwear for a woman. says it will be useful information for me in the future. wahaha. well... of course me being innocent, i couldnt really be bothered lar.

while im typing this entry i guess they must be packing their luagguages getting ready to leave for the airport. take care little ones, we'll miss you! enjoy using those bra you bought! hahas.

[ Stuck at Home ]

havent been out of the house since thursday and im begining to feel bored being stuck at home for 3 days already. the cough medicine's making me drowsy so i've been sleeping alot. hahas. missed out on cadets' recognition day today. heard it didnt turn out as good as expected, but its alright cause news received were that all our 5 fairsians passed ULP! CONGRATS! just as they are happy for passing, so am i for the 4 days of holidays ahead. err... did i say holiday? seems to be a study leave more like it. -__- yeahh, besides chillin out with a few friends on monday, its back to rot with my books at home on tuesday and wed.

been pondering over this quote from mr chia lately, "sometimes in life, there are no U-turns..."

cheers.

[ Christianity ]

was flipping through yesterdays papers this afternoon and yes, the big headlines did caught my attention. "Toronto Airbus crash, all 309 passengers and crew survived" wow, all 309 including a nine month old child actually emerged from the flames alived. say whatever they have to about the efficiency of the crew and plane etc, to me its one magnificiant miracle and a test from god.

frankly speaking, there are times when i do question my faith, - catholicism, certain practises and all. i don't doubt it, but im hoping to find some answers. from traditional strict rules, christinity has become a big joke. well catholicism is part of the christinity faith, and i do consider myself a christian. maybe im just used to the traditional mass of praise and worship to him and of thanksgiving in a proper church environment, but i dont' quite understand how an auditorium or a concert hall smacked right in a middle of a shopping centre can be called a church? i attended one such service some time ago with a few friends, which venue i would rather keep confidental. the worship leader was leading in prayer and tuning his guitar at the same time -_-. i mean... shouldn't we be meditating and focusing on god when we're speaking to him?? when i asked friends what does recieving communion mean to them, they couldn't really answer. well, that only shows our attitude. just following the crowd without knowing the true meaning of it. don't get the wrong idea, im not critisizing protestants' belief, but i feel many christians out there are being very "cosmetic" and taking god for granted which even a majority of catholics are.

recently i remembered hearing an advertisement on radio about this "supposedly praise and worship event" called Sonic Feast. it said, "come join us for the biggest outdoor live entertainment ever!" you might have heard of the newly released pop album "Shout" by pop rockers and today's christian songs artise, including Darlene Zschech a pastor at hillsongs church sydney and others more. not only that, there were huge crowds eagger to attend one of the services when a famous singer was invited there to preech. when there was'nt one, the number of people attending its service just fell back down.

to conclude - people are seeing christinity as a form of entertainment that appeals to themselves. choosing which church they want to go to, preferbly one with good music, good interior, great events, but forgetting its sole purpose, our which to worship and praise god whole heartedly... not to mention, using god's name or if you would like to call it, the focus on him to make a profit of money from t-shirts, audio cds, dvds, etc. if its for charity maybe thats fine. but the thing is that it goes into their pockets. the whole faith and belief is fading... yet, its only us who can save it. prayy... amen.

[ bored... ]

ok, i have to apologise for the pervious entry. been rather moody these few days. cant explain why either. but im really sorry if i did express any of it especially to those who talked to me online. anyways, decided to put the bad stuff behind me and look ahead. not to worry, im alright now. feeling as joyful as a carebear would be! :)

on mc today. yeahh for the 3rd time in the past 3 weeks. owells. i should be getting more sleep. the new skin was just a matter of keeping me occupied. i quite like it. simple and cute, just like me! ;) well, comments are mostly appreciated. as in on the new layout, not me being cute. hahas, i know i am.

some people's character are really weird till the extent they become extremely annoying. they try to escape reality again and again, blaming each of their failures on others and thinking they're the almighty ones, just to console themselves. as the saying goes, sometimes when you think the world has turn its back on you, take a look around. you might be the one who has turned your back on it. well these people seriously need a tell-off in their face. fcuk it.

bigger eye bags, lesser attention span during lessons, easily getting lethargic and agitated are all just begining starting to show up on me. hmm increasing stress level maybe? sighh. the only thing that seems to revolve around my friends and i is the word STUDY. and when it gets so caught up in us that we forget about everything around us... and sometimes even God, then that totally sucks.
gosh, im so looking forward to O levels. and once it passes i'll be as carefree as a carebear!

today's chapel was on the topic BLOG. fine, i might be half asleep, but i dont quite understand what the heck does blog have to do with chapel? couldnt even find any link between the topic and the verses she gave. seems like they were all just "thrown in" to make it seem like a christian sermon. why not just make it easier for everyone and call it a lifeskill lesson? i feel that the school and chapel is starting to lose its christian meaning, especially when you have christian ministry staff who backstab you. well i might be wrong, but its just an opinion.

visited the doc today to get a checkup on my neck. been feeling a shap pain from my neck leading to my arm and back over the past 2 days til i could hardly turn my head. doc said my nerves could be injured due to overexerting myself when lifting weights. well hope it heals soon if not i might have to go for an X-ray. >.< so glad its finally the weekends! damnn... this week totally sucked. as though tuition from monday to thursday wasn't bad enough, we were called in for PA duty thrice this week to provide the equipment for the various rehearsals. and if that wasn't bad enough, we had mock exams! grrr... ok, i need a good break! hmm... the schools been spending lots of money lately, yes i mean LOTS. if you think the giant posters, boards and plaques around the school costed a bomb, wait til you see e new pa equipment in the backstage and sound room of the hall, ok fine i meant CHEN SU LAN hall happy? wireless mics at 600bucks per piece, the new sound mixer at 15,000 and the 1500x projector that is able to project light 50m away costing no less than 60 000 bucks! i gotta admit thats the most ex toy i'll be laying my hands on for tmr's service. so where did all our money go to? now we know. the plaques outside every classroom may seem like a nice idea, but it gets pretty freaky sometimes when it says, "in loving memory of so and so..." just like the one outside the redcross room! OHHMANN THANK GOD they didnt decide to include the photo too! hah. ok, im looking forward to my 14hours sleep today. chill. :)

[tickets to NDP! ]

ugrh! im hooked onto this year's NDP theme song - reach out for the skies! managed to get away from my work last saturday and caught the NDP final rehearsal at the padang with enshao and brandon, thanks to yunxing :) the rain was pretty heavy at first but that didnt spoil our spirit and enthusiasm. we ransacked our goodie bags, pasted tattoos all over our faces, waved our flags, screamed and cheered our lungs out as though we were the only ones there. hah, well of course we recieved stares from those around us but seriously who cares, its a parade!! thank goodness the rain stopped soon after. not course we were getting cold or wet but rather cause people infront of us were sheltering themselves with their umbrellas, not knowing that its blocking our view! grrr... but anyways, we got tired of screaming and decided to just sit and enjoy the rest of the parade. ok one thing that really shocked us was how singaporeans behaved. buns were given out by the officials and the audience were literally throwing it across the sectors! WADDE.. -___-" i guess NDP this year wasnt that good as compared to last year, other than it being held at the padang. but then again, you'll know its all worth while sitting there under the rain and getting hit by buns when you see the fireworks. yeahh beautiful stuff there. managed to take some snapshots and just as typical singaporeans are, we rushed out of the stadium before the parade ended to avoid the massive crowd and jams. got to hq to fetch the little ones and came home all shagged. will upload the pics for you guys once i get them transferred. chill!

i just read something i told myself i wasn't going to. im feeling so confused now...

sighh...

seriously, what is love?

[ Start of a new Begining ]

our long awaited farewell party was held last friday. long awaited not because we couldn't wait to leave the unit, but rather excited to see what our juniors had installed for us. for a start, dinner was... wow i dont know how to describe it. but it was totally unexpected and indeed an awesome surprise. something i never thought of, and the food was good too. (: right after was the performances which were so heartwarming that moved me to tears that i had no intention to... but i did. then followed by the ncos' speeches, prize giving and ending off with a last parade.

thank you juniors for puting sooo much effort to make the night such a special and meaningful one for all of us. i wasn't blind to see that it sure took up alot of your time from dressing up, to the planning, the rehearsals and performances, the decoration to the gifts... but most importantly, thank you for being a part of my life here in fmssrcy. good or bad, happy or sad, its you who made me the person i've become today. life would be so different without you guys. wo ai ni men! :)

not forgetting my fellow ncos, thanks for being ever so cooperative and tolerant towards one another especially me. again, the only reason i didn't screw up every event was cause you were always there backing me up all the way... you're the best! thank you! (:

now that a chapter has ended, its a start of a new. things will be different, personalities will change... its hard to accept the fact my time is over, its painful to leave. but i have to... theres no point looking back regretting about the things i could have done but didnt. instead, its better to have the good memories to cherish and to look ahead into my future. the unit may be disbanded or broken anytime... but its in each one of us, that the true spirit of the unit lies in. as long as we're together, we'll always be one. and the one place that will forever remain in my heart, FMSSRCY. all the way!

[ Where did all that money go? ]

today's news headlines - "NKF withdraws defamation suits against SPH and journalist."

NKF's CEO earns income of 20k a month with annual bonus of 11-12months. owns a bathroom with a pricely german toilet bowl and gold plated tap. drives a Mercs, road tax, maintenance and repair paid by NKF. flies first class also paid by NKF. wahh this kind of job i also want sehh.

guess where all that money came from? YES OUR POCKETS when we donate to those nkf charity shows! SHHEESSHH...

well i'm just glad my chinese orals are over. if not who knows that topic might come out for nuts. heh.

uurrghh im having stomach ache and diarrhoea >.<

another weekend has passed. while the NDP people have been enjoying themselves at the padang i was freezing my butt of at the library on sat and sun. didnt managed to study that much due to a bad flu, but thankfully i'm alright now. so during this whole period of chionging, its hard not to think about our future plans... results, which poly or jc, courses available, NS, uni... etc, etc. for me, guess i have already sort out the path i wana take... but its gonna be hard though. im not having a really good feeling about chinese Os right now. to retake or not to, thats the question. come to think of it, i dont really need it as im planning to get into a poly. haha but then again, class pressure lah. ok, its getting rather "late" and i should be off to bed. gonna try jogging and working out at 5.15am in the morning before heading to school, hopefully i can pay better attention during lessons instead of being half dead. HEY NDP CADETS I WANT MY NDP PREVIEW TICKETS!!! =)

yay ORD this friday loh!

4C TAOPOK!



CLASS TEE



4C



GUYS IN GREEN

feels great to be up and back in school after a good long break. for now, its gonna be full steam ahead to O levels. for a start things are going fine, except for chinese orals of course, but i shun't go into its details. afterall, its over! hell yeah. ok, well recently i discovered a place which is really condusive and neat to study- JE library. haha so now you know where ive been rushing to everyday after school. most of my classmates would say the only reason i'll go there is to see the chicks but hahas nah, im studying lar ok. on a challenge to complete 200h of studies in six weeks :) somehow i suddenly find studying fun! haha and yes, so does chinese. i guess i've come to realise i need more time for self study and revision instead of tuitions and other lessons. so... yeah, guess things are gonna be like that for the next four months.

so london won the olympic bid, not much a surprise about that. but never did we expect it to become a next terrorist target. its saddening to see the number of deaths and destructions on the headlines of newspapers everyday. yes, and i mean everyday. is this gonna be another one of god's prophecies, we wont know. but still, do pray people! prayers changes things. believe it.

best wishes to those taking their oral exams next week and to you fellow muggers, jia you!

[ Bro's Bday out ]


the esplanade bettle



view from esplanade walk



chinooks flypast






great coordination






F16s doing their bomb burst









spectacular view of singapore



sneak peak into NDP05



tank



more tanks



ambulance


cool pics eh. was out today celebrating my bros birthday with afew friends. was pretty grumpy in the morning due to the lack of sleep caused by yuan hao the night before. ha ha ha. got woken up by a call from a junior telling us 2 of our team mates couldnt make it for today's CAC due to stomach cramps and fever and that caused the rest to be penalized. how true if they're unwell i won't know. but then again, im utterly disappointed for such a thing to happen... for me, even with a fever i still made it for ndp training. cac's... well, its indoor, no sun, aircon... sigh, i cant expect too much i guess. anyways, though we lost, i still thought our teams did a marvelous job preparing and presenting, so a big congrats! :) afterall, its fmssrcy first year in this CAC.

had steam boat at hotel royal for lunch which caused a BIG hole in my wallet. glad i still had some time after that to make my way down to the CAC to check out on our teams before meeting up again with the gang at marina square to catch a movie. hey, marina square's awesome after the renovation there. cool place to chill, especially Centre Stage. ;) got a chance to preview this year's NDP at the padang. hanged about for awhile at esplanade walk to view the 21gun salute and the overhead flypasts (aawweessoommeee) before finding a place to have dinner. this year's NDP's so gonna rock. unlike last year's boring one. hah, its a good thing we didnt drive our parents car as the whole damn place was blocked up for the tanks and other vehicles to pass. hmmm, after seeing the endless lines of tanks and other armoured personels, could imagine how singapore would look like during a war... planes roaring above... tanks on the ground... we hiding in underground mrt stations... unbearable blasts... the westin stamford falling to the ground. wooahh.

[ Can't sleep! ]

alright its almost 4 in the morning but i still cant fall asleep! uurrgghh. just completed watching 2 of the 4 vcds i rented yesterday. american pie the weddings a good show. crude, uncencored, humour... = absolutely worth watching! :) looking forward to a friend's dance performance at kallang threatre tonight. after that yuan hao and kevin's sleeping over again. haha well yuan hao claims he needs to use my com for his history project but i bet he just wans to blog lar. crazy fellow. so do visit his updated blog tonight! (boy, its gonna be another looonngg entry... ) oh yes, how interesting... i realised theres a baby lizard hanging around in my toilet the past few days. it never fails to be on the shower door whenever i wana take a bath. cute little bugger. afterall it helps eat up all the flies there for me so i shan't kill it.

guess what i found on the school portal, more homework!!! grrr... its surprising to know i've finished more assignments than most of my classmates (hahas, not that im trying to boast, but you should know that a slacker like me getting my work done faster than others... hah thats amazing.) but anyways, incase YOU out there dont know, theres an A and E maths mock exam during the first 2 weeks of the new term. not forgetting theres cheena oral and listening, which happens to fall on the same day as our farewell "camp" and POP. sian. ok larh, better get some sleep already.

happy holidays!

[ last week of school holidays ]

5 days left and its back to school! how exciting. looking back, the first two weeks were spent entirely on rc activities. the remaining two... well tried studying, but ended up slacking most of the time. :( got to spend abit more time with my family during the weekends. dinning out, and attended the pck musical last sat. it wasnt too bad lar. cant expect much when your seats' the cheapest and its all the way back. haha, it was entertaining though, but then again alots been on my mind lately... from the pile of homework i have left, deciding the next unit's committee, the results of chinese Os, experiencing the stress of the approaching prelims and Os... to even worrying about what jobs are gonna be available for me in the near future. not paranoid lar ok. so much for sec4 life. one thing's for sure, NO MORE RC AFFAIRS for me! well i hafta admit i am glad about it this time. haha cant believe im saying that. i guess i've been really drained out after the camp and a long rest will be good for me before i continue as a vi next year. but whether i would be able to come back to my unit would be another issue... haha but dont get the wrong idea, MY PASSION WILL NEVER DIE OUT SO EASILY... ;) time flies really fast huh. 3 more months to prelims, 5 to Os, then 6 months freedom! woohoo!

after one year of procestination i've finally got my desktop set up in my room, hoping it'll be of better use. installed a sound surround system and tv tuner to it with e lcd mounted to the wall, hah i think i wana lock myself up in my room for the rest of the week. YOs treated us to swensens earthquake just now while mr firhad is enjoying himself away with his girlfriend in KL. wahh, not bad seh, we got school holidays teachers also got. this type of job i also want leh. been chionging amaths for 6 hours today (5 chapters to go damn...) and can hardly open my eyes now... so off to sleep! chill.

[ Something interesting... ]

came across this post while surfing Friendster. haha, dont get offended though, just something to laugh at. =)

"Friendster has been chewed up and spit out like bad bacon by Singaporeans. Why? The bad use of English, the act of retardedism and most importantly, the disgusting and unfathomable pictures of you guys acting cute.

Puffing up your cheeks DOES NOT make you look cute. It just emphasises on how you're trying to hold back a burp. You look like a pufferfish. A moronic pufferfish.

Taking a shot from the top is alright, but do not ever open your eyes super wide and act cute. Never. It freaks people out, gives hentai lovers a description of how you're begging to get your face sprayed all over with cum. Oh yeah, you look likea dog too. My dog. So bark?

DO NOT EVER DO HAND GESTURES. It just symbolises on your stupidity and how you are trying so hard to speak 'Retard' in sign language. euu; miie; blahblahblahinserthereenlongatedword. They are creative, so to speak, but when you write compositions, you don't spell them like that, do you? I'd rather you take the time to spell every word correctly and leave a good impression on foreigners, than leave your dimwit-slime all over.

Get your grammar and vocabulary right. "Love hurts", not "Love hurt".

What is up with the how "moii" thing? Moi is afrench word - stop abusing that word, lest the french invade. Do you actually use that word in your real life conversations? Do you know how to pronounce it? And if you do, it's not "mu-oi".It's "muah", you moron.

I merely want you all to change for the better of not only the country, but for your own sake too. But hey, read on. Whoever doesn't sign admits the fact that he/shehas condemned himself or herself to my list of so-to-speak dumb pricks and/or crackheads. Inducing on that fact, you are also welcome to my full list of insults, garbage and junk.If I have offended any of you, you are a loser as you are easily agitated by just an internet mail.To my friends: If you do type/act like the above, please try to change. I'm not forcing, just requesting. If not, meh."

haha so what do you think?

[ Home Alone ]

spent the last few days working out, catching up with maths, doing the housework and cooking (surprising eh?) well thats cause my maid still isnt back. tried out afew new dishes but hah my mom and bro would never try any of them. went to west coast park yesterday for a PA gathering BBQ. wahh plenty of food to eat, which only forced me to go jogging this afternoon. got entertained by the rest's latest gossips and critisms (harmless ones larh yah). then we came across the topic about "kids" yes kids. ever wondered how much a kid can make an impact on lives... used to have a teacher who was a sadist and rides a bike to school. after having his first kid, hah well the bike was replaced with a family car and... he SEEMDED a nicer person. hahas. even changed school cause he wanted to be nearer to home. wondered what i'll be like with kids. but owell thats a long road ahead. for now, at least with redcross out of my mind, i do wish to spend more time with god, my family and studies. was watching globe trekkers on tv and found out that the outbacks of taipei is just as attractive as Australia! para-gliding, hiking, set raises/sets among the moutains, food... urgh, so dying to go there! anyone interested? heehee. damn, which bastard is sick enough to chop up a body, pack them into nice boxes and leave them along the kallang river... imagine wakeboarding and suddenly a head flops up onto your board. arrghh! gross. hope they'll find the one responsible for this soon.

btw, i just uploaded 2 new ablums to imagestation's pic gallery. so do visit them when you're free! thanks.

[ training camp pics ]

hey guys, just managed to upload some pics from the training camp. will upload more when i have the time. meanwhile, enjoy!

http://www.imagestation.com/album/pictures.html?id=2125283828

p.s. for those who are not members, you gotta sign up first to view e pics.

[ Back from camp ]

just got home from camp and really shagged, but a feeling of great satisfaction. a total of 6 hours of sleep in 3 nights, limited food and tremendous amount of physical training was indeed a challenge. but again, nothings impossible. for the first time i did not get entirely involved in every matter of the camp. not that i wished to slack, but cause i felt i have done enough and should give my fellow ncos and sec3s a chance to run this camp. and indeed they sure did a good job in organizing and managing it. though training may be extremely tough to some, i hope that the cadets will understand that only when one pushes him/her self to the limits, will one see him/herself raising as a leader; doing things that were once thought impossible, such as the 10km hike, survival cooking and pushing our bodies over the boundaries despite the little rest we got. i expect to hear much complains from parents very soon, but so be it. its sad to know how parents these days pamper their kids so much that many dont get a chance to get themselves out of the comfort zone and challenge themselves to overcome greater obstacles. the worst thing we can do is to please others and compromise training for welfare. as what vincent sir would say. "how can we expect trees to grow if we were to always keep them under shelter?" what greater joy could an instructor have than to see our juniors becoming greater leaders than us, achieving more and doing things better than we did. though ironically old masters in ancient china wouldnt pass all of their skills to their apprentice in fear that they might one day surpass them. hence, after centuries of such mentality, valuable skills are lost; the will to explore new frontiers dies off. for me, this camp was a really meaningful one. not only did i see my juniors taking on leadership roles and instilling in themselves better discipline, but i've discovered something more for myself. if the rest had notice, i was doing much of the upfront leading on the first day. while getting down to cook, clean, helping out with the fnb and serving the rest on the second, therefore furfilling the motto of the SWO, "TO LEAD AND TO SERVE." after 2 whole weeks of intense meetings, plannings, recces and of course the camp itself, it finally comes to an end. after 4yrs of cadet life and a yr of being a nco, my job is done. though my job may be done, but never my duty.

last but not least, thanks to all the ncos especially the fnb team, VIs, WOTs and not forgetting the cadets for their part in making this camp a splendid success! you rock!

[ Starwars mania ]

visited toys r us with hidayat and enshao yesterday. went there hoping to get one of those star wars light sabers. came accross this basic one which cost 24 bucks, but there wasnt any light in it. there was the other one we were looking for which was quite long and comes with light and sound (wow how exciting!). it costs 69bucks and too bad there was only one left :( ... so we decided not to buy it. just admit it larh all of us still has that kid in us and we gotta let him out to play sometimes. ha ha.

my father left for europe and my maid went back home and wont be back til end of this month. aww, its a pity my mom didnt go along with my dad. then my bro will be staying in his camp and i'll have the whole house to myself!

finally went for a swim and to the gym today after all the busy schedule i've been having for the past one month. must train up then i can tekan the campers with PT next week! muahaha. yes i know you're thinking that i look much fatter now. cant help it lar, i just kept feeling hungry while studying for chinese Os. but hopefully i'll lose quite some weight after this week of camps. haha. anyways, will be away from tuesday to saturday. oyes, ex fmssrcy cadets please take note that you're invited for our campfire this friday 7pm so please try to come!

[ guidelines for a new president?? ]

thank god its friday! what a week... sleepless nights, taxi rides, staring at my com and typing, going for meetings, aops... finally managed to complete my proposal, though theres small stuff here and there to add in during the next few days. got kevin and yuanhao to stay over at my place on tuesday to complete our proposals throughout the entire night, or rather morning. well, after the hardcore planning and recceing, whats left is to brush up on my "sadistcity"!

if you've been reading the papers you'll come accross this article about the guidelines for a new singaporean president. it states that you gotta be some chairman or CEO for at least three years in a company and blah blah... damn, there goes my chance. imagine me as your president. i'll legalise pirated vcds and dvds. does chairman of fmssrcy count anyways? LOL. i'll be working towards being a humanities teacher (the next steve ow) and YO of fmssrcy. then i'll rock the unit with nothing but corporal punishment and PT. hmmm i like the thought of that! ha ha ha.

[ deaf and mute? ]

hiked a total of about 12km today doing our recce for our training camp to be held next thursday. haha i shouldn't say the locations incase my juniors were to see =p. its really exhausting when you don't get enough sleep the night before and made to exert your body the next... well though it was extremely exhausting, we sure had our share of fun. discovered quite afew cool and romantic places around central singapore. the esplanade's a really nice place to visit after sun down. the ambience, music and night scenery just so rocks! especially when you have yer good friends around to talk cock with. had dinner at lao pa sat with ph sir and kev. while we were eating peacefully, a woman came up to us with a card stating that shes deaf and mute. and yeah, like you have seen before, she was selling these stuffed dolls. well, we politely turned her down. poh huat sir told us of this time an angmor guy came up to him with the same card and selling the same stuff. he walked away and poh huat sir shouted, "how much?!" guess what. he turned around and answered "five dollars!" haha so much for blind and mute. was at jurong point once and a woman came up to me selling this "robocop kinda torch" for 10bucks and saying its for charity. don't know how true it is, but some of these people actually get 70% of the money they managed to raise. what bullshit... so do make sure you know where your money's going to the next time you donate to such charities and don't get cheated!

chinese over

[ Time to burn the shou ce! ]

woohoo! finally chinese are OVER! well unfortunately theres listening and oral left in july. todays paper was rather ok, SURPRISINGLY. especially paper 1. but then again, i really have no idea if i can pass this paper as most of it were guesses. haha, as usual. well just pray for me that i'll make it thru this time and not having to retake again. decided to abandon our hike recce and watched starwars III halfway (sorry yuan hao lol) with hidayat. after the whole 2 and a half hours, i realise the movie's focusing only on one topic; girls are nothing but trouble. haha don't you think so? the only reason skywalker turned to the darkside was cause of his wife (was padme even his wife? haha i thought she was like wayyy older than him in the episode I ?)
ah hah, and also there was this scene of yoda leaving in his tiny spaceship and chewbacca and de other wookiee were crying. were they crying cause they really missed yoda, or cause they couldn't fit into yoda's tiny spacecraft and knew they were gonna get killed by the army...? haha ever thought of that?

attitude is everything

[ Attitude is Everything ]

Jerry was the kind of guy you love to hate. He was always in a good mood and always had something positive to say. When someone would ask him how he was doing, he would reply, "If I were any better, I would be twins!"

He was a unique manager because he had several waiters who had followed him around from restaurant to restaurant. The reason the waiters followed Jerry was because of his attitude. He was a natural motivator. If an employee was having a bad day, Jerry was there telling the employee how to look on the positive side of the situation.

Seeing this style really made me curious, so one day I went up to Jerry and asked him, "I don't get it! You can't be a positive person all of the time. How do you do it?"

Jerry replied, "Each morning I wake up and say to myself, 'Jerry, you have two choices today. You can choose to be in a good mood or you can choose to be in a bad mood.' I choose to be in a good mood. Each time something bad happens, I can choose to be a victim or I can choose to learn from it. I choose to learn from it. Every time someone comes to me complaining, I can choose to accept their complaining or I can point out the positive side of life. I choose the positive side of life."

"Yeah, right, it's not that easy," I protested.

"Yes, it is," Jerry said. "Life is all about choices. When you cut way all the junk, every situation is a choice. You choose how you react to situations. You choose how people will affect your mood. You choose to be in a good mood or bad mood. The bottom line: It's your choice how you live life."

I reflected on what Jerry said. Soon thereafter, I left the restaurant industry to start my own business. We lost touch, but I often thought about him when I made a choice about life instead of reacting to it.

Several years later, I heard that Jerry did something you are never supposed to do in a restaurant business: he left the back door open one morning and was held up at gunpoint by three armed robbers. While trying to open the safe, his hand, shaking from nervousness, slipped off the combination. The robbers panicked and shot him. Luckily, Jerry was found relatively quickly and rushed to the local trauma center.

After 18 hours of surgery and weeks of intensive care, Jerry was released from the hospital with fragments of the bullets still in his body.

I saw Jerry about six months after the accident. When I asked him how he was, he replied, "If I were any better, I'd be twins. Wanna see my scars?"

I declined to see his wounds, but did ask him what had gone through his mind as the robbery took place. "The first thing that went through my mind was that I should have locked the back door," Jerry replied. "Then, as I lay on the floor, I remembered that I had two choices: I could choose to live, or I could choose to die. I chose to live."

"Weren't you scared? Did you lose consciousness?" I asked.

Jerry continued, "The paramedics were great. They kept telling me I was going to be fine. But when they wheeled me into the emergency room and I saw the expressions on the faces of the doctors and nurses, I got really scared. In their eyes, I read, 'He's a dead man.'

"I knew I needed to take action."

"What did you do?" I asked.

"Well, there was a big, burly nurse shouting questions at me," said Jerry. "She asked if I was allergic to anything. 'Yes,' I replied. The doctors and nurses stopped working as they waited for my reply. I took a deep breathe and yelled, 'Bullets!' Over their laughter, I told them. 'I am choosing to live. Operate on me as if I am alive, not dead."

Jerry lived thanks to the skill of his doctors, but also because of his amazing attitude. I learned from him that every day we have the choice to live fully. Attitude, after all, is everything.

MT O levels

[ New Blog Skin ]

its been quite some time since the last entry, found this skin while surfing around and thought it was pretty cool. well do give me your comments yah. chinese Os are around the corner and its no surprise everyone is chionging. just finished doing 300 zhao ju within the past 3 days! i've never been so "in" to chinese before that i actually think im enjoying it. ha ha ha. im so gonna blow if none of them comes out in the paper. ULP camp's today. seeing what my juniors are going through sure reminds me of myself one year ago, willing to do anything for that red stripe, the handphone incident and of course the red bull that kept me alive. though its hard to see them suffer like this, its all part of the process of glooming a unit leader. well can say that hq courses are becoming more and more slack. T-generation maybe? with ULP this year allowing 5 cadets from each unit, cant expect much attention given to the cadets from the mentors and officers. and guess what, ex ULP trainees are not invited to the campfire on monday! what bullshit. two more days to chinese Os then i'll be free at least for awhile! so looking forward to that. but then again, theres training camp proposal to complete! uurrghh. been wanting to catch starwars III but never had the time. anyone keen? anyway, all the best to all those out there mugging for chinese! BU YI YU LI! HAHA...

one week since the fdcom had passed and so much things seemed to be happening this week. weekly fdcom trainings have stopped for the time being. im not sure to feel happy or sad about this. happy cause now i'll have more time to rest and study, but sad course... i just simply miss everything, from the drills to my fellow squadmates. i'm sure all the fdcom drillers have been feeling this way too especially after today's training which they were all put back into their level squads and the standards of drills would definitely be lower. all i can say to you guys is, don't let your drill slack, but instead influence the other squadmates and bring them to the standard or even higher of the fdcom's. the recruitment for NDP06 is here once again and we can send 10 cadets this time. the response was overwhelming and therefore i guess i'll hafta cut it down when i look through the list again next monday. although im really glad that some of the sec3s are super enthusiastic and keen to join everything, im indeed worried for their studies as well. i do not want such redcross events to affect yer studies too much. so pls, go seriously think about it and let me know by monday. had a rather long meeting with the YOs and Poh Huat Sir yesterday. discussed about the unit's futher training plans, which don't look very good because of the few trainings we have left before we hand over, and also because of the tight restriction of the school in certain programmes, and how parents would complain to the school over the slightest thing. seriously i cant stand the thought of parents over pampering their kids. i dont believe in sheltering my juniors all the time, but i rather they get burnt by the fire at times and learn from it. nonetheless, the seniors and i are working very hard to rectify each problem we're currently facing, and bring the unit to the highest level of excellence we can go to... we'll never be able to succeed until we stay united. heard redcross is gonna be the Guard of Honour contingent for FMSS Founder's Day 2006. our chance is finally here after waiting for 3 years. its gonna be super cool with the 5 new SWO commanders and im confident we're gonna display the best drills among the other UGs. its a pity for me that i wouldn't be able to join you guys this year. i received shocking news on wednesday. my PA senior fell into a serious state of coma all of a sudden due to a blood clot in his brain. for more info, please refer to http://www.lioneltock.blogspot.com/ . all of us were totally shocked and horrified to hear such a news. the guy's blenhiem and he has been an awesome senior and friend of mine. he taught me lotsa stuff that i'll never forget during my sec2 years before he graduated. hes only 19 years old. he's now in the ICU of NUH and already went through the first operation. the 1st one was a failure but i believed the 2nd which he had undergone today was a success. his heartbeat did stop for awhile but it resumed later, as according to sean. that was the latest update from the blog at 5.25pm. i do not know whats the real latest news as i've heard not very pleasent ones... but i still pray for it to be the best. so pls pls pls... i beg all of you reading this to keep him in your constant prayers. i don't know what to do now. despite all the power i have to command a unit, im not even able to save the life of this innocent man. blenhiem has been such a close friend to me and its terrible to hear of such a tragic incident happening to him. i feel so lost and deeply sadden. god... you showed us so many of your miracles especially just a week ago during the fdcom. pls... send us another one and let him live...

PHEW... finally the camps are over. the last two weeks was suuupppeeeerrr stress, with all the plannings and tests going on. been sleeping at 2am+ every night mans. oh well, glad its over lar eh. guess the camp went quite successfully... although there was a few cock up here and there within the committee but it was'nt obvious to the rest. i guess what miss tai said was right, running two camps at the same time wasnt such a good plan. tried working on both during the 1st day but by that night realised i was too shagged to carry on so had to leave the orientation camp to the rest of the committee while i trained with the fdcom squad. but hey, the camps turned out great yea! a big thanks to sarah and the rest of the committee, you guys did a really great job! (: been doing alot of thinking and reflection lately... especially after having heard what the YOs hafta say... fdcom, we seriously hafta train to the fullest with our remaining 8 trainings left to the competition. i always tried making trainings fun for all of us, as i strongly believed its the process that counts as compared to the results. i wish for all of us to end off with unforgettable memories that we'll all learn to cherish and never forget. i really hate myself when i hafta punish the scold the squad... its the same feeling seeing someone you love so much suffering course of yourself. i've always let you guys have lotsa privillages as compared to the rest as i really want you to feel special... coming to the rc room after sch, leaving your stuff dere, buying drinks for yall, the way i talk 2 yall, printing the fdcom jersey and all the other sacrifices that the seniors made for the squad, its not for nothing... c'mon guys, like i've always told ya, we're the best of the best we have in the unit, if we don't make it, no one else will. 8 more trainings are all we have left. guess yall didnt really feel the impact when miss tai cried, but i sure did. i dunno why, but i started crying too while yall were having your nap. i was touched that she actually cared so much for us... compared to other YOs i know who don't care much about their unit... i realised how much support we were getting from the unit, but just that we were too blind to appreciate, thinking about our own selfish desires... we train, we suffer, and we win. not for ourselves, but for our unit. i've been putting my faith to the test these few days... especially when the skies were dark and it started raining on friday. yuanhao came and asked me to get ready to execute contingency plan for campfire cos they believed it the rain wudnt stop. i told him a straight NO. i was sure the rain would clear by then, and i was glad it really did. saturday morning, hidayat called me and asked if i wanted to be the reserve commander for the squad... it was really a tough decision for me cos if i were to be the reserved commander, i wudnt get a chance to be march with the squad, and its kinda too late to get a replacement for me. in the end, i told him we'll go ahead without a reserve commander. im taking a very very big risk on this. if anything was to happen to hidayat, the squad would hafta withdraw. once again, im leaving this to god and i have full confidence everything will go just fine. so the rest of you guys out dere, pls continue your prayers for us. overall i guess we all enjoyed ourselves during the camp ehh... the games, campfire, confidence walk which i bet the "couples" all made used of. basket. as well as the late nite "talk cock" sessions... and of course my favourite PT. lolx. still feeling kinda shagged and whole body aching... lucky its chinese new yr this week and i can get my rest. my parents are leaving for china on the 10th to 20th feb so i'll have my freedom for the while. ha ha ha.

lol okay so the blog's finally up, like after so long... all thanks to wenfang. ha ha ha. anyways just decided to do this cos im... jus bored lar yah.